Tiredoftrying, looking for a woman for anything

Aged 27 and living in Altoona, Pennsylvania, United States

I am a 27 year old white man who is trapped in a friendless and very frustrating life destroyed by my family. I have tried for so many years to meet someone that my life is literally wasting away behind paywalls I will never be able to pass and depression that is not only destroying me but also winning after all of these years. I am beyond active bedroom wise but no one wants me and even if they did I can never message anyone. I eventually want to have 2 daughters but have extreme difficulty bonding do to years of isolation and abandonment. I don't live alone but live with a payee who entirely ruined my life and sees controls my money making hard to do anything. Wether its a friend with extra or a relationship I desperately need someone who I am into and who can be there for me because I can't take the lonelyness and frustration anymore.