Gizmo88, looking for a woman for a serious relationship

Aged 38 and living in Peoria, Illinois, United States

I get SSI but trying my best to get my body best it can for what it is dealing with i try to take care of myself and look good as i can. I am the most easiest man you can ever be around but i am also the most shyest guy ever. Havent been around a woman in 19 years or so I miss being held hugged kissed hand holding *** having a woman lay on your shoulder is a dream come true if happens. Just very shy so the more i ask anything to a woman even if its odd we find out faster what is or isntt ok and prepare ourself for future, meet i dont wanna be like these others and meet and like each other things happen and regrets i like to know everything ahead of time so i know if id be comfortable as a man and also prepare myself for i lack that area. I need woman that isnt after money or cards or scams i want a real woman a woman i can call my best friend my partner to love cuddle rub her feet and cherish her as she will me as =s serious true to each other. If this woman exists so far i havent found one.