I need some advice as I'm driving myself crazy. I started seeing my boyfriend a year ago and I love him and his family so much. But the problem is that I have had a crush on his brother for the past six months. It started off innocently and I didn't think anything of it as I am a bit frivolous with crushes, but it's got to the stage now where I am insanely jealous of his girlfriend and I can't bear to be around her. We are both always at his parent’s house and although she is nice I hate her for being with him. I can't tell anyone how I feel. My bf's brother doesn't know how I feel either and I would never tell him. And I haven't cheated on my boyfriend and I would never do that as t would rip his family apart.
The crazy part is, that I wouldn't normally go for someone like him, he's overweight with spots, he barely washes and listens to awful emo music which I can't stand but there is something about him that I am totally smitten with.
I'm finding it harder and harder to keep a secret as I find myself getting into situations just to be with him. The other thing is that I sense that he doesn't even like me and we are quite nasty to each other but all I want to do is kiss him.
It's a horrible situation. Has anyone else experienced anything similar as I need some advice on what to do and how to stop being in love with my boyfriends brother.